I pray I never find out….

I was sitting in a friend of mines office today, the look on his face was of a man who is weary. I can say that if I were him I would be more than weary.

I asked him what was up. He asked me to shut the door to his office.

As I sat down, tears started streaming down his face.

He was quiet for a few awkward seconds. When he wiped his eyes and started talking I wasn’t sure what to expect.

My friend has been dealing with quiet a bit in the past couple of years with his health, his father’s health, and his wife’s health.

“Linda and I were talking this weekend and she told me that the average life expectancy of someone with the type of cancer she has is only two to five years. It’s been two years now.”

His wife has been battling cancer for the last two years, unfortunately it is battle she will lose. The type of cancer she has is inoperable and incurable, chemotherapy will stop the growth but won’t completely kill it. Her bowels are so engulfed with the cancer that it will likely cause an inoperable bowel obstruction. A bowl of noodles, I think is the phrase she used when telling me what her doctor said.

My friend is trying to face the reality of losing his best friend, his lover, his soul mate, to a very painful death and in his mind it could come at any moment and there is nothing, not a thing he can do about it. My friend’s wife is upbeat most days, I think she has accepted things as they are.

Yes, death will come to us all, and yes it can happen at any moment. The hard part is knowing the time frame and how it will come.

When I left his office all I could think about is my wife, and what I would do if I were in his position.

I pray that I never find out….



Souled out Servolution


Christ has no body on earth but yours, no hands but yours, no feet but yours. Teresa of Avila


Just a little talk with Jesus

Now let us have a little talk with Jesus,

Let us tell him all about our troubles,

He will hear our famished cries,

And he will answer by and by,

Now when you feel a little prayer wheel turnin,

Then you’ll know a little fire is burnin,

You will find a little talk with Jesus makes it right

I love this old song.

What worship song makes you want to stand to your feet and raise your hands in surrender to Jesus? What song makes you want to open your heart up?

Just a Little Talk With Jesus, is still one of my favorites, it still makes me want to raise my hands.

Now for all you Southern Gospel fans out there, and I think there may be two or three that read my blog that love Southern Gospel, this is probably one of my all time favorite Southern Gospel Quartets, The Gold City. I love the harmonies.

And I’m throwing this one in just because it’s my blog and I like the song.

The last video was the Cathedrals, I lost count of how many times I had seen the Cathedrals and the Gold City in concert when I was a teenager. Southern Gospel music still stirs my heart and brings back so many memories of when I first got saved.

What old hymns or gospel songs do that for you?


things over heard

For those that don’t know, which is I think all none of you, I am a volunteer at Crosspoint Community Church (the writings and ramblings given on this blog are the sole opinion of me and not Crosspoint Community Church).

Crosspoint is a portable church, much like the first church, except we don’t follow a cloud around, put up a tent every Sunday, make our pastor wear ornate robes, and carry around the Ark of the Covenant. We do however like to burn animal flesh over a hot fire, but we call that a cookout.

To set up all the equipment, stage, lights, video, sound, lobby, and kids area early in the morning can be challenging to say the least. You could probably the imagine the cast of characters it takes to put all of this together in a short amount of time, it takes a very “special” kinda volunteer to want to wake up at 5:30 in the morning and set up church at a movie theater.

The point of this post is for those of you that have never experienced setting up the “tabernacle” early in the morning, I want to share with you some of the things over heard during set-up at Crosspoint.

1. We are going to need someone to clean up the goat crap if it craps on stage.

2. Hey guys, I am going to jump off this 8 foot ladder and I want you to catch me, it’ll be easy.

3. Over more, more, more, more, more, more, more, more, more, more, more, more, more, more, more, more. STOP!!!! Now put it back.

4. Bring the box with the snake in it down here.

5. Now get the box with the other snake and bring down the other side.

6. Where’s all our help? Oh there you are.

7. I hope I’m not a wuss and pass out while she is piercing my ear, I’ll make sure I’m positioned to not fall on the drums or guitar in case I do.

8. The goat ate Tony’s music.

9. Did Dana bring the wine?

10. Plug this here, this here, this here, this here and this here, you got that? No.

I kinda wonder what you would over hear when they set up the Tabernacle.

All kidding aside, I get to serve with a great group of volunteers on the set-up and break down team. These folks make the magic happen and you don’t ever see them. They are make a huge impact for the Kingdom one cable at a time, one light at a time, one piece of tape at a time. Love you guys.


Defend part 2

Me personally, I want to defend myself.

Do I think it is right?

 Isaiah 50: 6-8 says this: 

6 I offered my back to those who beat me,
       my cheeks to those who pulled out my beard;
       I did not hide my face
       from mocking and spitting.

    7 Because the Sovereign LORD helps me,
       I will not be disgraced.
       Therefore have I set my face like flint,
       and I know I will not be put to shame.

    8 He who vindicates me is near.
       Who then will bring charges against me?
       Let us face each other!
       Who are my accusers?
       Let them confront me!

 Acts 13 Paul was “slandered” by the Jews so he spoke boldly to them and said that since you don’t want eternal life we’re going to talk to the Gentiles.

Sticks and stones right?

The thing that pops out at me in the verse from Isaiah is “Let us face each other”…..

For me, yes I can defend myself, in a Godly way. If my accuser confronts me then I can, but I cannot answer slander with slander. I am very selective about what I will defend, if what is going on will detract from the mission of the church, then forget it, I won’t engage you, if it is a silly, pointless arguement then no, we’re done.

What do you think?

My friend Heidi is also writing a blog on this, check her out and weigh in, I have a feeling she feels differently about this.


taking a stand or an eye for an eye?

I asked this question a few days ago on Facebook, “when is it ok for a Christ follower to defend themselves against slander?”

I got very mixed responses.

All of them made sense, all of them were scriptural.

Here are a few of the comments, I’m gonna leave the names off of the comments.

If it comes from another believer, we are to go to them and confront their sin… The Old Testament gives us many examples of God’s people praying against those who were trying to hurt them, I would consider that how we are to act against unbelievers
When you get that answer… let me know. 😉 Jesus didn’t even fight back as he was being beaten, spit on, made fun of, cursed, and nailed to a cross. He allowed it all to happen even though he could have disemboweled each and every person who was hurting Him. I think that’s your answer. Paul got back up after being stoned and went right back to preaching the Gospel. 😉 Suck it up, Jason. It takes balls to be a Christ Follower, man. Big hairy ones!
So… while Jesus did accept all of the insults without fighting back during his “time” (crucifixion), he did not back down from a fight any other time. His ministry was filled with him taking on the religious leaders who were calling him names… If it affected my family, livelihood, or ability to serve God, i would take it on , but make sure you can stand before God with your actions in doing so. if it doesn’t affect one of those things, who cares?
fighting back and standing up for yourself are two different things–never hesitate to stand up for what you believe but I agree with (name deleted)–don’t lower yourself to negative behavior, be solid and confident in what you believe. Let other people “be stupid”
ignore critics who are cowards and don’t have the nuts to say something to your face. read Nehemiah. don’t come off the wall. sword in one hand. trowel in the other. critics detract from mission. if they get in your face. fight back but don’t get bogged down.
Who’s right? All of them? None of them?
What do you think, weigh in and tell me is it ok for a Christ follower to defend themselves against slander?
I’m going to post a follow-up with a blog friend and get her point of view, I’ll link it when it happens.




What did you want for your life?

I didn’t want kids when I was 18…..

I didn’t want them when I was 22….

When you are that young and extremely selfish you don’t want anything that will eat up your time, money, or anything else that you thought you had.

God has a funny way of changing that around, when my first child was born I was 22. I’m 33 now and have four kids, my youngest just had his first birthday.

All four of them are unique in their own way and all the same in others. I couldn’t imagine my life without them.